The art of being alone

30/04/16

Nighthawks by Edward Hopper


Call me a laggard but the truth is I just discover how to use podcast on iPhone....

and God knows how joyful I am to ever discovering this podcast and stuff.  There's a lot of superb podcast channel out there, but my current favourite is 99% Invisible. I've been listening to their podcast almost every morning during my walk to campus! I see myself as a "visual" person than an "audio" person. Among the 4 basic communication skills, listening is the most difficult one for me. So listening to podcast really helps me improving my listening skill.

Also, I kinda wonder why podcast isn't that popular in Indonesia.


Anyway, last week I listened to The guardian's podcast, who interview Olivia Laing (the author of The Lonely City: Adventures in the Art of Being Alone). They talked about the connection between isolation and creativity. Its such a good podcast, that inspires me to wrote this post.

And the book itself talks about how Olivia Laing explore the lonely city (re: New Yorkby way of art. Its so cool, how the loneliness can affect some artist's works (from Edward Hopper's Nighthawks to Andy Warhol's Time Capsules, from Henry Darger's hoarding to David Wojnarowicz's AIDS activism) and suggest we should all be a little less frightened of being alone.




From what I experienced, we live in a society where children raised to be social and make many friends. Then they grew up thinking that "alone" is associated with "shame", "anti-social" and "unwanted". As a proud introvert, its actually irritating for me being with people that fear of being alone. People needs to understand the difference between being alone and being lonely. Even one says that lonely itself have two different reasons, because the lack of intimacy with human being or because the lack of connection with like-minded person.


Agnes Martin, an American minimalist-abstract painter, once said that 
"The best things in life happen to you when you're alone."

I've read somewhere, that there is a term called "Spotlight Effect", it refers to the tendency for individuals to think that others are observing them more closely than they actually are. Based on the research, people actually aren’t paying as close of attention to your appearance and actions as you are because they are too busy paying attention to themselves. I mean like, maybe you're the only one that realise you're having a bad hair day or your shirt is the wrong size. 


So the next time you're walking the wrong direction, no need pretending to check your phone before turning around. 
Because less likely people see that.

My "GoT Season 6" Excpectations

23/04/16





My plan was to make it on After Effects, but seems like the universe doesn't like that plan. My AE suddenly keeps quitting every time I open it. So I used photoshop, and the quality is super crappy omg.


On Season 6, I wish :

  • Hodor never leaves Bran
  • Sir Jorah Mormont dies. His life is so sad, i can't bear it
  • Ramsay Bolton dies poisoned by Varys
  • Jon Snow finally knows something (if he still alive)
  • Theon Greyjoy survives and marry Margery Tyrell for political purpose (Go Reek!)
  • Jaime leaves Cersei and joins the night's watch
  • A man turns out to be gay. A man doesn't need woman.
  • Tyrion make an alliance with Daenerys, and together win the iron thrones. Then wait until someone ruins it :)

UPDATED (SPOILER ALERT. Season 6 was finished *sigh)
  • Rest in peace my hero!
  • Well, Sir Jorah hasn't die.... yet
  • HOORAY!!!!
  • KING IN THE NORTH!
  • I like the fact that Greyjoy and Tyrell made an ally with The Targaeryn
  • WTF. Freaking Mad Queen!
  • A man said goodbye to Arya Stark from Winterfell
  • can't wait for the next season!

Credit : All characters illustration made by Jerry Liu Studio


Feb '16

11/04/16



First of all, hi hello there. 
Second of all, honestly I do have a lot of stuff i wanna blogged about, there are literally like 15 posts on my draft. The thing is every time  i got an idea then i started to write them down, idk why but it always end up with me struggling with the words or me being a fantastic procrastinator. Ugh.
And last, here is a vlog from last February (i know, i know, its 2 months ago, i know).






twenty sixteen

04/01/16


 


























Its 2016! I wanted to make this post as an opportunity to say Merry Christmas and Happy New Years to you all! 

I really have no idea what i should write here. So until next post guys haha. And what is it with this blogger new version, its freaking confusing. Also, you guys can add my snapchat its bulanhoro (i post my "art" through there sometimes *self-promotion*)



my gosh this post is so random

routine

21/11/15






Some night rants

"I know some young sisters who spend a ridiculous amount on fake hair, to impress fake people and to feel better about themselves in a fake society" - chakabars's instagram's caption

I started using makeup as a basic routine when i was in my 2nd semester of college. I'm majoring in communication, i learned that looking neat is one of many ways to persuade people to hear what you're saying. And the last two half years i tried to convince myself that when i put my makeup on, it means i love my body so i try to look "good", not that i hate my body so i try to look "good". But slowly it gets me to the point where i'm not pleased with my bare face, and it scares me. I don't even wanna go out without putting something (or some things) on my face.

On the other side, i hate the fact that when you were born as a female, the society told you that a woman's crown is her hair. Then they manipulate the standard of beauty, the standard of the "perfect" hair. Yet, i'm not pleased with my natural hair.

Gosh, i wish i'm brave and confident.

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Anyway, a few of my friends asked me about some beauty products that i used, so here you go. All of the products mostly under 200k and you can find 'em easily in the drugstore

Face
Moisturizer - The body shop shiso UV protector
CC Cream - Hadalabo CC cream (medium shade)
Powder - Revlon touch & glow extra moisturizing face powder (translucent 1)
Blush - Maybeline cheeky glow (fresh coral)

Lip
Lipbalm - Moogoo tingling honey lipbalm (its organic! yay!)
Lipstick - Revlon super lustrous lipstick (love that pink)

Eye
Unbranded lash curler
Mascara - Maybeline hyper curl volum express
Brow - Silky girl duo eyeshadow (16 mocha latte) *i'm quite fine with my brow so usually i just fill them in with the dark colour of this eyeshadow using an eyebrow brush.